My head hurts, folks. It feels…???…???…???… “HEAVY”. Perhaps jam-packed FULL…???…???…???… OF unwanted “STUFF”. Chaos. Anxiety. Guilt. Disappointment. ALL negative “STUFF”!!! Just breathe, Jill. Breathe in. Breathe out. In deep. Out slow. Just breathe…
I had a “DIFFICULT” day, folks. A horrible. Terrible. No good. VERY BAD DAY!!! Oh no, please say it isn’t so. My eyes even feel as though they will rupture, bursting gooshy stuff from the inside-out!!! Hhhmmm…I remember “THIS” feeling…kinda, folks!!! The feeling of my swollen brain inside the confines of an “un-giving” skull. I can remember the first realization of NOT feeling my swollen brain inside my skull while living in Daytona Beach, FL. 7-8 years post that horible car accident in 1986 that ended up “SAVING” me from my“SELF”!!! Thank-you, Jesus.
So, I started this day, Wed., 09/21/16 scrambling to hurry, Hurry, HURRY-up and finish the previous blog post, “A BLESSED DAY AT WORK (MCNRC)” and racing to a 9:00 am meeting @ Home Again St. Johns. All went well. The blog post was positive. The meeting went well. And then BAM!!! Things went from bad to worse to “WORSER-THAN-EVER”(at work)…for a LONG time now!!! I was in a very, Very, VERY bad place…AND I NEVER did turn completely to God…seeking His HELP to guide me out of the darkness. Hhhmmm… “WHY???” I don’t know!!! But, the day went increasingly down-HILL from the moment I punched in!!! OUCH!!!
I have learned this day to be so very, Very, VERY thankful that God NEVER suffers from “Giver Fatigue”. THANK-YOU, Jesus!!! (And thank-you, Paul.) 😉 That is such a Christ-like way of saying “IT”. I only wish I had continued moving forward in the “RIGHT” direction rather than taking DOUBLE-STEPS backwards!!! 🙁
The day turned “CRAZIER” by the minute as I later thanked a teammate for having my back in a “DIFFICULT” situation ONLY for me to jump back in that same “DIFFICULT” situation on the opposite side in support of my original attacker against my original supporter!!! IN SUPPORT OF…???…???…???…the perceived “UNDERDOG”…who was my original attacker!!! :/ HUH??? How-in-the-world do these things happen??? UGH!!! :/ WELCOME TO “JILL’S WORLD,” folks!!! :/ :/
Yep, it’s been a “DIFFICULT” day in “JILL’S WORLD”!!! I will, however, REJOICE…???…???…???…and be glad in it. WOO-WHOOOOOO!!! 😉
It is now 9:31 pm on Wed., 9/21/16. My head is STILL feeling very, Very, VERY heavy and hard to hold upright. Time for me to just lie down here in the darkness and spend some alone-time with God, my heavenly-ROCK. And guess what??? I am certain that tomorrow will be BETTER than today. I ALWAYS know this to be true, especially when I’m having a bad day…TODAY!!!
GO TEAM!!! WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!
P.H.P., folks. People Helping People.
Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today…”EVERY” day.
ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!! AMEN.