impacts EVERY aspect of today, tomorrow, “ALWAYS & FOREVER”. Hhhmmm…think, Think, THINK…
“ALWAYS & FOREVER”…???…???…???…is the phrase I scribbled onto a $50.00 dollar bill back in, Hhhmmm…, I think it was 1985. Yep, it was given as a b-day gift, so it MUST have been in late October-early November, 1985. A b-day gift that I could NOT keep. For MANY reasons. I, vividly, remember scribbling that phrase, “ALWAYS & FOREVER,” onto the $50 bill and placing it back into the hand of my forbidden lover.
He was married. And I was married. But…???…???…???…NOT to each other. And “HE”…???…???…???…was the father of “3”. OUCH. 2 different vows…???…???…???…BROKEN. 2 separate marriages… DESTROYED. 7 lives, at least…???…???…???…SHATTERED. Oh yeah, “I”…???…???…???…was a MESS back then. I just didn’t know it yet. And…???…???…???…I was sure “dying” to learn. LITERALLY. I just didn’t know it, yet…
I am certain my “LIFE COURSE” had been mapped out “FOR” me…way before conception. God KNEW my family’s struggles. HE KNEW EVERYTHING. And He was there. ALWAYS. I just didn’t know Him yet.
My sister, Lynn, and I shared a bedroom when we were younger. Our twin-sized beds were positioned parallel to each other in one particular room we shared on George St. in Fayette, OH. Boy, I remember talking to a God that I knew very little about in the darkness of our room as I looked out the bedroom window into a sky full of twinkling stars. Ouch. Seems like just yesterday…nearly 50 years ago. Hhhmmm…I wonder if Lynn spent as many hours lying there awake as I did…thinking, And Thinking, AND THINKING. Questioning “LIFE” and seeking forgiveness for “things” from a God I didn’t even know at all. Yep, He was ALWAYS there, alright. I just didn’t know it, yet…
In looking back, “LIFE” REALLY seemed to fall apart during my Junior year of H.S. THERE WAS NO STOPPING OR REDIRECTING MY PATHWAY TO SELF- DESTRUCTION. Oh yeah, “IT”( my self- destruction)…???…???…???…was a-comin’. BOOM. BOOM. BANG!!! And “IT”…???…???…???…allowed the conception required for my re-birth. WOO-WHOOOOOO!!! “I”…???….???…am a BORN-AGAIN CHRISTIAN, folks!!! DOUBLE WOO-WHOOOOOO, WOO-WHOOOOOO!!! PRAISE JESUS!!!
I must admit my heart aches. Right Here. RIGHT NOW. I do, however, feel the movement of my lips forming just a slight, slight smile, or grin, as I ponder the enormity of God’s grace. Hhhmmm…”THANK-YOU, JESUS”.
Recent events at work have prompted this partial revelation of the darkness from my past as an offering of “HOPE”(Heaven Over-Powering Earth) in the realization that Jesus Christ paid the price for ALL of our sins. THE PAYMENT WAS ACCEPTED!!! AND GOD W-I-L-L FORGIVE…the moment you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. BUCKLE-UP, folks!!! And ENJOY THE RIDE…along your “JOURNEY” from “HERE” to “THERE”. (Pppsssttt…I sure do “HOPE” to see you there…ONE FINE DAY!!!) 😉
GO TEAM!!! WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!
P.H.P., folks. People Helping People.
Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today…“EVERY” day!!!
ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!! AMEN.