Daily Archives: January 14, 2016

“STILL BREAKING FREE…”

of those chains that bind me.  Yep, we started another women’s bible study class at Anastasia Baptist Church (ABC) here at the island campus in St. Augutine, FL on Mon., 1/11/16.  “ANONYMOUS,” by Cindi Wood,  which addresses the negative labels (identities) displayed by four biblical women and asks study-goers to reflect, personally.

I have learned many lessons throughout my life, folks.  AND…I have read, listened to and discussed similar thoughts/ideas for the past 2-3 years since Pastor Walter West “HELPED” me to identify the nature of this “JOURNEY” I’ve been consciously, yet sub-consciously, traveling for MANY years now.  Searching for something.  Someone.  Somewhere.  Out there.  :/ 

It sure seems like I keep learning new applications of old lessons to MY specific “LIFE” story, folks. Things I KNEW, yet I didn’t REALLY know.  Hhhmmm…think, Think, THINK…

Example.  I knew I was a “QUITTER” in LIFE…BEFORE my car accident in 1986.  I quit the track and swim teams in Junior High.  OUCH!!!  Oh yes, I was a QUITTER!!!  What I just realized, however, is that I quit those and other things because I labeled myself as NOT GOOD ENOUGH.  According to “ME”!!! 

And then I quit college in 1984…I wasn’t focused enough.  I quit my marriage in 1986…I wasn’t committed enough.  NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!  NOT FOCUSED ENOUGH!!!  NOT  COMMITTED ENOUGH!!!  I WAS A QUITTER!!!

I fought my way through crazy delusions (false beliefs) which served as an outlet to release my inner ANGER.  My inner anger was the result of inner turmoil that was buried away in the form of DENIAL as a means of …???…???…???…SURVIVAL!!!   “CRAZY,” huh!!!???!!!???!!!???  Yep, my “LIFE” has sure been CRAZY, but it ALL makes sense to me now…AFTER ALL THESE YEARS!!!  PRAISE JESUS!!!

“HEAR YE, HEAR YE!!!  I now wish to PROCLAIM my “SELF” a “WINNER!!!”  WOO-WHOOOOOO!!!  JILL…is NO longer a “QUITTER”!!!  DOUBLE WOO-WHOOOOOO, WOO-WHOOOOOO!!!  Wouldn’t ya like to be a winner to???!!???!!!???!!!     Aaahhhhhh!!!  OH NO!!!  It’s ANOTHER(distraction) one of “JILL’S JINGLES,” folks:   I’m a winner.  He’s a winner.  She’s a winner.  We’re all winners.  Wouldn’t ya like to be a winner too???  Be a Christian.  To be a winner. (the Dr. Pepper jingle).  😉

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

P.H.P., folks.  People Helping People.

Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today…”EVERY” day!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.