Daily Archives: July 5, 2015

MY SLEEP DEMONS…

have returned!!!  Aaahhhhhh!!!  In FULL force!!!

THE CHANT:  BACK OFF SATAN!!!  MY GOD’S GREATER THAN you!!!

Hhhmmm…I invite you to come along, folks. We’re taking another “TRIP” to “JILL’S WORLD”!!!  OUCH!!!  This trip will reveal a recent…“MISTAKE”MY MISTAKE!!!  DOUBLE OUCH, OUCH!!!  At least I keep learning, right???  Right!!!  READY OR NOT, HERE WE GO…

Have I mentioned that I am a “JUMPER”???  I like to “JUMP” right in… Feet First and/or HEAD FIRST???  Yep, that’s right!!!  No messin’ around here, folks!!!  If you’re going to do it…“JUST DO IT”!!!  RIGHT NOW!!!  BAM!!!  AND…”GET ‘ER DONE”!!!  DOUBLE BAM, BAM!!!

Hhhmmm…perhaps “THIS” is NOT always the best way to do things.  DOUBLE Hhhmmm, Hhhmmm…”JUMPING” right “IN” may NOT work in EVERY situation.  I am finding some truth in that last statement, folks.  🙁

I spoke with my psychiatrist a few weeks ago about reducing the dosage of my anti-depressant medication.  “REDUCING”…the dosage.  We even came up with a plan of reducing that dosage, gradually.  HA!!!  I AM A JUMPER, folks.  FULL SPEED AHEAD…

OUCH!!!  Yep, as mentioned in a previous post, I completely STOPPED the medication.  Hhhmmm…trying to get from “HERE” to “THERE”…quickly!!!  PAINFULLY!!!  Yep, OLD struggles…are reappearing.  The sleep demons…are attacking…AGAIN!!!  DOUBLE OUCH, OUCH!!!

Just “WHO”…do I think I am?  Choosing to do things “MY” way…over a trained professional’s recommendations.  WHAT???!!!???!!!???!!!   I must be… “CRAZY”!!!  😉  Folks,  I strongly believe that individuals are “called” to certain areas of expertise…in order to “HELP” others(whether or NOT they, themselves, know they were called for the purpose of “HELPING” others)  Hhhmmm… so my doctor recommended the “RIGHT” way, but I chose “MY” way???  OUCH!!!

Hhhmmm…have I mentioned that I am “SLOW” to learn things as they apply DIRECTLY to “ME”???  I think I have…back there…somewhere…in a previous post or two!!!  And “THAT”…I AM:  “S-L-O-W”!!!  But STEADY!!!  Why, oh why do I keep trying to take short-cuts???  The short-cuts ALWAYS take me off course…requiring that I back-track to where I “HAD” been in order to continue moving forward…in the RIGHT direction!!!   OUCH!!!  “PATIENCE”…is a virtue, Jill!!!  I do plan on winning “THIS” race, folks…eventually!!!  According to my physician’s recommendations!!!  😉

The lesson learned here???  Is realizing that I am NOT equipped to be the captain of EVERY team I’m a member of!!!  BAM!!!  I am still learning to trust and follow others who are more capable…than I am.   After all, God has placed them in my direct path for a reason.  So, I have resumed the medication at the dosage recommended by my physician.  WOO-WHOOOOOO!!!  Say “GOODBYE”…to those nasty “SLEEP DEMONS”!!!  DOUBLE WOO-WHOOOOOO, WOO-WHOOOOOO!!!

GOD IS GOOD…ALL THE TIME!!!  ALL THE TIME…GOD IS GOOD!!!   

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

P.H.P., folks.  People Helping People.

Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today…“EVERY” day!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.