Monthly Archives: March 2015

“LIFE…”

IS DIFFICULT!!!  WHEW!!!  Isn’t “THAT” the truth???  For everybody.  Everywhere.  BAM, folks!!!  DOUBLE BAM, BAM!!!

Hhhmmm… “LIFE” was a post published back on 8/31/13!!!   That post discusses the difficulty of LIFE.  AND… those plates of “STUFF”” we each carry around EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! Trying to juggle our plates of “STUFF” with daily life responsibilities!!!  OUCH!!!  Now, that’s tough!!!

Many folks???…???…???… have “difficulty” keeping their, already FULL, plates of “STUFF” separate from current events.  We all know those teammates who seem to be struggling most of the time, don’t we???  You know… those folks ALWAYS complaining.  They’re always angry or upset… about something.  MAKING MOUNTAINS OUT OF MOLE-HILLS!!!    :/

Well, I don’t know about you, but I DO NOT tolerate “COMPLAINERS” well,  AT ALL!!!  Heavenly Father, please forgive me!!!  My learning continues to occur, however…  SLOWLY!!!

So… what am I learning???  “Complainers”… are people too!!!  Doing their best while simply seeking to survive this thing called, “LIFE”.  I am much happier with myself when I don’t allow others’ negativity to have a negative impact on me!!!  KEEP THINGS POSITIVE!!! ( that was a memo to self… “Self… keep things positive!!!)  😉

I admit it, folks.  I recently had a set-back.  At work.  Friday… was DIFFICULT!!!  I lost some self-control and decided to add “MY” 2 cents into a “situation” when it wasn’t even sought!!!  WHY, Jill???!!!???!!!???!!!  WHY???

I know why, folks.  Ya see, the past few months have been…???…???…??? “DIFFICULT.”  Very difficult.  I have NOT been diligent with reading/studying God’s word.  Hhhmmm… I have noticed that “LIFE” seems to appear more “DIFFICULT” when I allow situations to distract my focus… AWAY from God.

“BAD” things seem to pile-up on each other.  I get down.  My bible stays closed.  I miss church.  I eat(more)…to feel better, but then feel worse.  Something else happens that also gets me down.  Bible stays closed.  I avoid any “churchy” activities.  I eat still MORE to feel better.  And, of course, “FEEL” worse.  And I do allow myself to “WALLOW” every now and then!!!  In self-pity!!!  Aaahhhhhh!!!  I just wanna scream, “STOP”!!!

For those who have NOT followed this blog from the beginning, I have struggled, emotionally, with my weight… ALWAYS.  I was NOT over-weight, but always wanted to be “thinner”.  Too thin.  Sickly thin.  Until 1986, and the car accident that added more difficulty to my “LIFE,” forcing me to face my demons… or to give up… PERIOD!!!  (Pppsssttt… I will NEVER give up, folks.  “I”… AM A FIGHTER… who likes to WIN!!!)  😉

GOD IS GOOD… ALL THE TIME!!!  ALL THE TIME… GOD IS GOOD!!!  AMEN.

KEEP THINGS POSITIVE!!!  By keeping the focus on God .

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

P.H.P., folks.  People Helping People.

Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today… “EVERY” day!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.

 

“THAT’S NOT MY JOB!!!”

WHAT???!!!???!!!???  MGO!!!  (May God Offer [insight or understanding!!!])  I have “DIFFICULTY” with the statement, “That’s not my job”… these days, folks.  😉

I can, however, remember (a few years back) getting upset or angry when “others” would forget or neglect to do something that was, technically, “THEIR” job.  Oh, and I would NEVER think about doing “IT”  F-O-R  them.  HA!!!  Now, “THAT”… was a sign, folks.  A BIG red, flashing sign indicating that I HAD ISSUES!!!  Yep… I HAD ISSUES!!!

And another thing I remember???  I NEVER seemed to get angry with myself for NOT doing something I should have done.  “MY” forgetfulness was much more tolerable (to ME) than others’ forgetfulness.  Hhhmmm…think.  Think.  THINK. 

I strongly believe that there is ALWAYS “SOMETHING”… that explains EVERYTHING!!!  We, as individuals, know what explains our own forgetfulness in EVERY situation.  We can tolerate it because we “GET” it.  We are fully aware of our own personal struggles, concerns, and difficulties.  We don’t, however, “GET” what “IT” is that explains other people’s forgetfulness.  Their struggles.  Their concerns.  Their “DIFFICULTIES”.

People forget things.  People make mistakes.  People get distracted.  LIFE IS “CRAZY” BUSY these days.  “LIFE IS DIFFICULT,” folks.  FOR EVERYBODY. EVERYWHERE.  Just “HELPING” your teammate out by doing what needs to be done takes only a few seconds longer… than actively seeking the person out to ask them to come back over here to do what they’d forgotten and left over there for you to come over here to tell them to go back over there and do!!! :/  Ya still with me???  (I think I may have just lost myself… in there… somewhere!!!)  😉 

EVERY SITUATION can be… and WILL BE… viewed differently by EVERYONE!!!  It doesn’t really matter what you claim to have “MEANT” by what you said.  It matters “HOW” you said it and/or “HOW” it was “REALLY” intended.  Negative is negative.  And “IT” doesn’t sugar-coat very easily!!!

Keep things positive, folks.  “Positivity“… is naturally sweetened… NO “SUGAR-COATING” NECESSARY!!!

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

P.H.P., folks.  People Helping People.

Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today… “EVERY” day!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.

 

 

 

 

“SUFFERING IS GOOD”

I’m trying to remind myself of that very point I made back there somewhere in a previous post… quite awhile ago.  You remember it, right???… “SUFFERING IS GOOD”.   WHAT???!!!???!!!???!!!  I am NOT kidding, folks.  “SUFFERING IS GOOD,” was a previous comment I had made regarding the suffering that Jesus endured on that cross… FOR “US”… as payment for “OUR” sins.  Boy, His suffering was sure better than “GOOD,” don’t you think???

WOW, could “I” endure suffering???  Or could “YOU” endure suffering???  With a Saving Faith… to get ME/YOU through the “DIFFICULT” times???…???…???…

YES, “I” CAN.  YES, “YOU” CAN.

YES, YES, YES!!!  “WE” CAN, folks!!!  TOGETHER!!!  WITH GOD AS OUR TEAM CAPTAIN!!! ” WE CAN!!!”  WOO-WHOOOOOO!!!  DOUBLE WOO-WHOOOOOO, W00-WHOOOOOO!!!

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!

P.H.P., folks.  People Helping People.

Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today… “EVERY” day!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.

 

 

 

AGAIN???!!!???!!!???

REALLY???!!???!!!???!!!

OOPSE, I DID “IT” AGAIN!!!  Are you kidding me???  “I”… MESSED-UP… AGAIN!!!  I dragged my poor son, Chase, to our family dentist this morning at 7:30 a.m. to get a cavity filled… and guess what???  His appointment was scheduled for tomorrow… at 8:30 a.m.!!!  WHAT???!!???!!!???!!!  8:30???  Tomorrow???  How can that be???

Aaahhhhhh!!!  I am really losing it, aren’t I???  The two receptionists were so pleasant.  All I could say is:  “I’m sorry.  ‘THIS’… is SO… ‘MY WORLD’ “!!!  Chase and I left after rescheduling his appointment for next week during Spring Break!!!  :/

“BREATHE, JILL.”  Just Breathe.  And… “LET IT GO!!!  LET IT GO”!!!  Life is so very busy these days.  Mistakes are gonna happen, right?  Especially in my world!!!

It is only 8:32 am, Wed, 3/11/15.  Chase accepted my apology.  Both kids just left for school and I am heading to work now… IT’S A BEAUTIFUL MORNING!!!  AMEN.  😉

JUST ANOTHER DAY, FOLKS… IN FLIGHTY “JILL’S WORLD”!!!

ESCAPE TO…

“JILL’s WORLD”. 

WOW!!!  “THIS”… hurts, folks.  I have been seeking to “ESCAPE”… for awhile now… trying so very hard to get away from…???…???…??? “SOMETHING” I have not been able to identify.  DOUBLE WOW, WOW!!!

There has sure been ALOT of “CRAZINESS” in my “LIFE” lately!!!  I find myself reading back through previous posts and feeling shocked at how “DIFFICULT” LIFE has been… ON A REGULAR BASIS!!!

I can’t “HELP” but to wonder, “WHY”???  What’s it ALL for???

And… the ANSWER???   I KEEP getting???…???…???…

“P.H.P.,” folks.  People Helping People… to survive this thing called “LIFE”.

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.

 

 

SEEKING A RAINBOW…

that indicates the storm is over.  That brighter days lie ahead…

Tears form in both eyes as I recount the numerous times, lately, that I have looked up into the sky on difficult days… grasping for those white fluffy clouds to comfort me… yet, explaining away their absence with:  “Oh, thank you, Lord for sending water in the form of rain to nourish plants, trees, insects, animals, etc”.  OR “Thank you, Heavenly Father for this clear-blue perfect sky”… of NOTHINGNESS ( I feel “LOST” when I look up into a clear blue sky where there are no fluffy clouds to grasp onto… Hhhmmm… “CRAZY,” huh???).

“LIFE” has sure been “DIFFICULT,” lately…

I will wait, however, for MY rainbow to appear… indicating that brighter days have, indeed, ARRIVED!!!

Giving the BEST of MYSELF for “JUST” today… “EVERY” day!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.

 

TOO TIRED TO FIGHT

I, simply, CANNOT believe this folks!!!  So, so much keeps happening these days.  After weeks of being exposed to the flu virus at work resulting in missed meetings/events in an effort to avoid transference of germs from myself to others… I was so, So, SO proud to have evaded that nasty little bug at work!!!

HA!!!  I, then, pick something up out in the community!!!  DOUBLE HA, HA!!!  And guess what???  I not only miss a day of work TODAY, but I have also taken precautions and cancelled, YET ANOTHER, meeting with Pastor Walter West, scheduled for tomorrow!!!  WHAT???…???…???…  ANOTHER CANCELLED MEETING WITH PASTOR WALTER???!!!???!!!???!!!  Yep, “ANOTHER” cancelled meeting with Pastor Walter!!!  I CANNOT MAKE THIS STUFF UP!!!

I AM SEEKING A RAINBOW, folks…

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.

 

MY BROTHER, BOB. 4/16/56-2/18/2015

WOW!!!  Now, this is tough, folks… I do NOT know exactly where this post will start… OR… end.  I am, however, feeling a “NEED” to share the “Brother, Bob” I  knew and loved, yet didn’t know how to “HELP”.

I remember not REALLY knowing my brother, Bob when I was younger.  He was 8 years/6 months older than I.  Bits and pieces  are retrievable in my memory bank, however much is LOST… subconsciously… AND PURPOSEFULLY.  Thank you, Jesus.

My brother struggled his ENTIRE life… simply SEEKING to survive it… utilizing methods that were so VERY harmful to dull the pain.  Drugs.  And alcohol.  This pattern began early in Bob’s life… I’m guessing as a “young” teen.

I have NO idea what that poor boy went through in losing his older brother, Michael, to leukemia.  Bob was the only one of us siblings to have survived “THAT” experience.  If my math serves me correctly, Michael must have passed in 1958.  And then came us girls… Laura in ’59. Lynn in ’63.  And then me, in ’64.

Bob was a cute, athletic boy.  He had talent in sports.  Baseball was his first love.  He even played on a semi-professional team in FL during the ’70’s.  Yep, I was a proud little sis’.  Then he married a gorgeous girl in FL, Crystal.  They had a son, Ryan.  I cannot lie, folks.  LIFE WAS SURE DIFFICULT… for that young family.  Bob, had “issues”… I am certain of that.  Crystal had her “issues”.  WE ALL HAVE ISSUES!!!

I do not know the details, but their marriage fell apart at some point.  And Crystal felt compelled to “flee” with my nephew, Ryan… when he was about…???…???…??? I wanna say “2”… Hhhmmm… can that be correct???  Crystal fled Ohio with Ryan when he was about 2… the approximate age at which Bob was when his life-long “inner turmoil” began… think.  Think.  THINK… (2 yrs. of age seems to be a common link here)

I have NO judgement regarding ANY of the decisions made regarding the  “DIFFICULT” life that Bob and Crystal shared.  I do know, however… that “SOMETHING” explains it all.  PERFECTLY!!!

End of story???  No.  A “chance” reunion with Ryan occurred years later (Ryan was about 24-26 yrs. of age then) somewhere back in time, I believe in 2005.  My beloved father had already passed earlier that same year.  I flew to Ohio from FL for this special reunion.  “IT”… was AMAZING”!!!  Lots of food.  Lots of fun, including board games and 70’s music with singing/dancing in my parents’ kitchen.  Many relatives visited while he was there.  Ryan, I am sure, was a bit overwhelmed with SUCH A BIG FAMILY… HIS FAMILY!!!

That reunion was bittersweet, folks.  Perhaps we had all worn fake hats that weekend… trying to portray ourselves as something/someone we were not.  Reality soon set back in, however, and we each continued on our own paths leading us in separate directions…???…???…???  Somewhere???  Perhaps, NOWHERE???  Hhhmmm… think.  Think.  THINK.

I, originally, left Ohio in 1992… looking for “ME”.  I found “ME” in 2007.  ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.  Oh, how I wish I had been able to “HELP” my brother, Bob, rid himself of those nasty demons he’d been fighting his entire life… since the age of 2!!!  I do find comfort and peace, however, in knowing that EVERYTHING has occurred according to God’s plan.

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.