WOW!!! “THIS” memory has recently returned and it keeps re-playing through my mind…over, and Over, and OVER again!!! I just want to scream “STOP”!!!
I grew up as a very ANGRY, but fortunate child. Both parents(struggling to survive “LIFE” ), 1 brother, 2 sisters, a nice home, EVERYTHING!!! WE HAD IT ALL.. .if you looked in from the outside. I am STILL amazed to “look back” and piece together what EVERYTHING back then…was SHOUTING-OUT, LOUDLY… about the dysfunction within our family. We were, however, living it and were unable to “SEE” it for what it was… SORRY!!! I am feeling compelled to interject with… “IT IS… WHAT IT IS!!!” 😉 Hhhmmm… “it was what it was”…if we’d only been able to “look”… and “SEE”. DOUBLE Hhhmmm, Hhhmmm… Yep, I had been blind…but now I “SEE”. Amen, Jesus.
Okay, back to my “ANGER”…
Folks, I can remember walking from our house on George St. in Fayette, OH down to the local tennis courts with my sister, Lynn. Now, Lynn was an athlete. She worked HARD at every sport she played. And was very good at EVERY sport she played. Well, her and I would walk the short distance to the community tennis courts for a “FUN” game of tennis, right??? “FUN”… RIGHT??? WRONG!!! I would get furious at her EVERY TIME she didn’t hit the ball “RIGHT” to me!!! WHAT??? Are you kidding me??? “Who”… in their “right” mind wants to run ALL over the court hitting a ball with a racket???!!!???!!!???!!! That’s just it, folks… “I”… was NOT in my right mind.
I am realizing… just NOW… my anger on those tennis courts was NOT about Lynn playing good tennis and making me “RUN”… “THAT”… was a sign of my inner turmoil being released, inappropriately, during a “GAME” we were playing for… “FUN”. We were not, yet, teenagers at that point… So, so sad. I am deeply ashamed of those memories.
I apologize, Lynn. Perhaps you may read this. “I am sorry.” Sorry for the pain we suffered together… yet apart.
Folks, “THOSE” memories have been haunting me lately. Perhaps that is why I am sharing this “MEMORY” with you… right now. Take from it what you will… to help you in any way possible along your journey of “LIFE”. I will not lie… I am also hoping that by sharing… I will finally be able to… “LET IT GO”!!! It hurts…
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS… IT ALL MAKES SENSE…
P.H.P., folks. People Helping People.
GO TEAM (GOBLE)!!! WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!
Give the BEST of yourself for “JUST” today… “EVERY” day!!!
ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!! AMEN.