Daily Archives: July 2, 2014

FINDING MY “LOST” SELF…

amidst the inner turmoil.  WOW!!!  I am not real sure where “THIS” idea came from or where it will lead, BUT… “I WILL FOLLOW”.  DOUBLE WOW, WOW!!!  Please come along, folks…we’re goin’ in… “DEEP”!!!

Let me begin with a question… Do you think it’s possible for our “INNER TURMOIL” to cause an outward sense of being “LOST”?  I am referring to those “PLATES,” of… you know what… that we all carry around with us everywhere we go… EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!  Think about it.  And please stay with me, folks.  I DO believe that because “I” was so “LOST” in my crap on the inside, I always seemed to get “LOST” on the outside, as well.  Are ya still with me?

Now, “THIS” is ANOTHER, “MAJOR” realization for me, folks.  I cannot explain to you the anxiety that would flood through me with “ANY” sense, at all, of being “LOST”.  Mentally OR physically.  Yep, you guessed it… I felt “LOST” quite often.  And I now, truly, believe that this fear and/or sense of being lost all the time was a symptom of my inner turmoil.  Hhhmmm.  Have I told you that I am a “thinker”?  Everything means something… In “Jill’s World”.  WOW!!!  DOUBLE WOW, WOW!!!  Welcome to my world, folks!

And have I mentioned that I appear to have “found” myself?  I do believe I have ( Now, is this sounding a bit… “crazy”… to YOU?  It sure is to ME!!! ).  I may still get “lost” every now and then (quite frequently, to be honest), but I am no longer “AFRAID” of being “LOST”.  What???  Yep, that’s right.  I guess I never really feel “LOST” anymore, because I know that GOD IS ALWAYS WITH ME.   And you know what else?  I can, truly, find the good in EVERY adventure or misadventure  experienced… if and when I look hard enough to find it!

MAY ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN.