A Bible Study by Beth Moore… WOW!!! DOUBLE WOW, WOW!!! Breaking free from the yokes that enslave us. We are currently in Week 7 of this bible study course at Anastasia Baptist Church here in St. Augustine, FL. What a journey this has been!!! I, simply, cannot explain the inner turmoil “THIS” roller-coaster ride has stirred-up within me!!!
Satan. God. The fight continues within me… DAILY!!! You are NOT gonna believe this folks. I can hardly believe it myself. Please join me as we take another journey to “Jill’s World”… TOGETHER!!! 😉
This Bible Study, “Breaking Free”, has touched my inner being to the core. I cannot explain it, folks. The craziest thing happened to me during weeks 5 and 6. Week #5, Day 1: “Straight to the Heart”. I completed this day’s study at home early that week. Bible class is on Monday evenings from 7-9 pm, so I usually begin actual course work on Tuesday. We have 5 lessons to complete each week regarding a specific “study” topic, or area. Week #5, Day 1 was “Straight to the Heart”. Folks, anxiety built within me that entire week as I was, COMPLETELY, unable to even open my study guide or Bible at all after Day 1!!! I got so frustrated with myself. My heart raced. My head “SWAM,” in that very familiar drunken sensation. I felt… “nervous” as I tend to be a bit… “AN_L” when it comes to completing homework!!! I COULD NOT, however, even start Day 2’s lesson of Week 5. I DID NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT IT WAS REGARDING, however… I was completely unable to even open my study guide… PERIOD… for the remainder of the week!!!
So, I go to class the following Monday to discuss that week’s lesson which I was unable to complete…for “SOME” reason. HA!!! DOUBLE HA, HA!!! I sat, completely stunned, the entire class…unable to say ANYTHING!!! Day 2’s lesson??? “Hearts Broken in Childhood!!!” This is the lesson that began my 2 week-period of… “paralysis,” my inability to even open that study guide OR my Bible!!! WOW!!! DOUBLE WOW, WOW!!! “Hearts Broken in Childhood!!!” OMG, folks. My heart had, truly and completely, been broken in childhood. Why so much turmoil within myself about even doing the study that I had no idea exactly “where” it was going??? I had NO idea that Day 2’s study addressed: “Hearts Broken in Childhood”. I don’t think!!! Had I, subconsciously, scanned ahead? Unaware that my mind had “peeked” at what was coming? I don’t think so, but my resistance to doing that Bible study was so, SO REAL!!! SATAN… at work…trying to STOP me from “Breaking Free”!!!
Week #6: “Beauty from Ashes”. My studies that week were, again, abruptly halted after Day 1! Not completing homework assignments is devastating to me!!! It was actually harder “ON” me to NOT do the work than it would have been to just do it and get it done!!! I, seriously, beat myself up over that!!! Week 7 is going smoothly. I have, eagerly, completed up to Day 4 of the lessons this week and have 3 days left to finish the final lesson before class, Monday night. Trusting God is the main thing I am taking away from this week’s study. “IT” feels sooooo good…to “TRUST”!!!
So, what have I learned? I am definitely on a spiritual journey, folks. I may not, however, be ready to “Break Free”… TOTALLY!!! I am a work in progress. And I am… “IN IT TO WIN IT”!!! This journey of mine will never end as I plan to keep on walking with… AND FOLLOWING… JESUS!!!
P.H.P., folks!!! People Helping People!!!
GO TEAM!!! WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!
ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!! AMEN.