Daily Archives: January 28, 2014

MY COMPLETE INSANITY…”I’M COMING HOME!”

5:30 am, ET Fri. 5/31/13.  I invite you to join me on another adventure to “MY WORLD”…

HERE are my exact words, as scribbled on a sheet of paper early that morning:

“OH NO.  I feel [the] need to scream…”I’m coming home”!  [I] Think I am very happy as tears roll down my face.  [I] have to call Walter West…AGAIN.  I think I may be dying.  Is this crazy???  THIS IS REALLY CRAZY!  This is [the] 2nd time in my life when I’m questioning death…What does this mean???  I need guidance

~5:30 am Fri, 5/31/13

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LEAD and I shall follow…”

WOW!!!  That is EXACTLY what I felt in the early hours of that Fri. morning, 5/31/13.  I can remember crying so hard…but feeling so HAPPY!!!  I, evidently, feared…yet welcomed…my apparent death.  When ?  Where?  How?  NOW???  I was saddened to think I “might” be dying…soon…er than desired, however I was crying “HAPPY” tears.  “I’M COMING HOME!!!”

I cannot explain to you the DEEP, DEEP EMOTIONS, flooding every  minuscule cell of my entire body!  I, truly, believed that I was dying at that exact moment.  I DID telephone Pastor Walter West and leave a message on his church answering machine THAT EARLY AT THAT EXACT MOMENT!!!  (I am certain that he must have thought to himself:  “Yep, that lady IS CRAZY!!!” 😉

I spend ALOT of time, as you all know, in my own little world inside my over-active mind.  That time during my life was VERY
DIFFICULT!!!
   The “GOOD NEWS,” however???   I’M ALIVE!!!    And  Living each day to better myself while glorifying God!!!  AMEN!!!

So, what do I now think about that early Fri. morning back on May 31, 2013?  Well, I was crying, but they were happy tears as I “wanted” to scream:  “I’M COMING HOME!!!”  Folks, I  believe that it was all due  to my steadily growing FAITH!  I DO BELIEVE!!!  AND I CAN NOW STATE:  “YES!!!  PRAISE JESUS!!!  I KNOW THAT I WILL BE GOING TO HEAVEN” upon my exit from this earth!!!  Thus, I WILL THEN  BE… “COMING HOME”!!!

HALLELUJAH!!!  AMEN!!!

JUST “WHO”…DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???

 

P.H.P.:  PEOPLE HELPING PEOPLE. 

That’s it, folks.  People helping people… SURVIVE LIFE!!!

Each of us have our own difficulties, DAILY!!!  Please don’t take your difficulties out on other people.  They already have their own plate of “stuff” to deal with!  This applies to EVERYONE!!!  EVERYWHERE!!!  Children.  Adults.  ANYBODY…ASSUMING…ANY ROLE…ANYWHERE!!!  (in short, this includes any living and breathing human being!  😉

Complainers… BOTHER ME!!!  ANYONE talking “down” to ANYONE… BOTHERS ME!!!  First of all, I AM VERY “PASSIONATE” about this, folks.  I can tolerate a wee bit of this.  After a few minutes of listening, however… I CANNOT KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT!!!  JUST “WHO”…DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!!!???  I am sorry, but doesn’t everybody deserve to be treated-and spoken to-respectfully?

I guarantee that SOMEBODY…SOMEWHERE… would disagree with you or…think that you are absolutely “WRONG”!!!  YOUR WAY… is not… THE ONLY WAY!!!  GET OVER YOURSELF!!!  (Sorry, but I am feeling the need to take a “break” right here as my “PASSION” is starting to “boil” over ;).

Folks, please just realize that:  WE ARE ALL OUT THERE, DAILY… DOING THE BEST WE CAN…SIMPLY SEEKING TO SURVIVE… LIFE!!!   Can we PLEASE just try to help each other?  P.H.P.:  People  Helping People.  That’s all, folks.

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN!!!

 

SELFISH…”CARING”

Think about that for a moment, folks.  Let’s turn it around a bit, okay?  How about… caring about somebody simply for selfish reasons.  Get it?  SELFISH CARING.  Now, toss that idea around a bit!  Hungry?  Chew on that nugget for awhile!

So, what does that really mean?  Simply stated…”selfish caring” is when your value of an individual is based, strictly, by what they are able to do “FOR” you.  TO HELP YOU!!!  Any concern you have for them is based around their contribution to making your life “easier”.  PERIOD!!!

Yep, I have “been there, done that”!  I am, truly, ashamed to admit that.  However, my desire is to help individuals identify “signs” of what I believe is… “INNER TURMOIL”.  There is something…somewhere that explains this unattractive character flaw.  I believe that it is our individual responsibility to live each day, seeking to better ourselves for the over-all success of those teams to which we belong!  REMEMBER:  each smaller team joins together at some point to form TEAM USA, and ultimately…TEAM WORLD!!!

LIFE IS DIFFICULT!!!  FOR ALL OF US!!!  There is absolutely no shame in seeking assistance to get a grip on life.  I sought assistance for over 20 years, folks.  From medical, psychological, psychiatric, and eventually pastoral which lead me directly to God.  I AM, FINALLY…”HEADING HOME”.

Wow, folks.  I had no idea where this post would take me.  I sit here AMAZED…AGAIN…as the realization is hitting me.  I will search through my mountains of papers consisting of notes I’ve been scribbling down since last May, 2013 in search of an entry where I felt as though I was “going home”.  An upcoming post will be regarding that specific, “CRAZY,” moment-in-time when I felt like screaming:  I’M COMING HOME!!!” (in the wee hours of the morning).  Please check back.

GO TEAM!!!  WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!!!  AMEN!!!